Madness. At its best.

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

'Madness' can cause you to go numb sometimes.
When you always have certain expectations from it.
The me that had hide from reality, the me that always try not to expect. Im all different now.
Not sure whats up with me lately. I think Im thinking too much, but its nothing actually. Not that theres any problem, I just want to rant.
Yes openly rant. lol.
I don't wanna think about solutions, I don't wanna discuss about it, I don't wanna make trouble. I JUST WANT TO RANT.
I think over dosage of happiness really leads to catastrophe as the after math.
You know when you keep thinking about will you lose this, will you give up, what problem is waiting, what will this leads to.
I am really a noob when it comes to all this. I know I think too much, but ya, again I cant help it.
My new motto is ' Sadness is just a blardee emotion. It ll pass soon '

Ahh. I feel much better after ranting.

The Law of Emotional Choice
I therefore take back all the crap I've written.
This is totally eye-opening and mind-opening.
I choose what to feel. And I ultimately choose to feel happy :)
Emotions are from me. I am the one to choose for it to pass. And I want me to be the one choosing to be happy!
But I wanna rant to feel happy, haha. So I choose not to delete what I've posted.
Haha I guess my New Year Resolution is to choose to be happy, not to feel sorry for myself. And tolerate people around me. lol.
My horoscope says my negative point.

SUSPICION
IMPRACTICALITY
FANATICISM
PARASITISM lol
MERCILESSNESS
TARDINESS
INTRANSIGENCE
WORRY
SADISM lol
LACK OF FORESIGHT
REVENGE
PESSIMISM

And you know what, I think almost all of it are true. This will be a very hard. VERY CHALLENGING. To just be a better person in overall. But whats a new year resolution if its not challenging right lol.